Test 2

Please select your preferred language.

請選擇你慣用的語言。

请选择你惯用的语言。

English
中文简体
台灣繁體
香港繁體

Login

Remember Me

New to Fridae?

Fridae Mobile

Advertisement
Highlights

More About Us

6 Nov 2021

Can queer men be the hero in our own story?

The quest continues for our happy-ever-after.

 

“At last he reached the tower and opened the door into the little room where the Princess was asleep. There she lay, looking so beautiful that he could not take his eyes off her. He bent down and gave her a kiss. As he touched her, Sleeping Beauty opened her eyes and smiled up at him.” – from Sleeping Beauty by the Brothers Grimm.
As a single gay man, I have longed for that magical moment when I meet my Prince Charming. Thanks to the subliminal influence of fairytales and their Disney adaptations, part of me still longs for this perfect man — one who will rescue me from the dreary circumstances of my daily life and infuse every moment with joy, possibility and a sense of adventure. I know that many of my straight single girlfriends also cling to this notion. While we may tell ourselves that it is utterly ridiculous and unrealistic, there is a part of us that wonders if it really is impossible to meet that ideal man.
When you’re gay, this is somewhat complicated by who should be the damsel in distress and who should be the hero of the story. While I know that it is ultimately dis-empowering to desire to be rescued – to be woken up from a deathlike sleep with a kiss while waiting helplessly – nothing captures my imagination more than the idea of an extraordinary man sweeping me off of my feet. The completion of this fairytale would also be proof that true love does exist, that it is possible for two men to share it, and that I am worthy of it.
However, logging on to a dating app is possibly the surest way to burst any gay fairytale bubble. It’s not only that contemporary gay culture doesn’t lend itself to long-term partnering due to the quick availability of easy, drive-through style sex – which I am not at all averse to and frequently enjoy. It is also the fact that serendipitous romance appears to have died sometime after Meg Ryan met Tom Hanks at the top of the Empire State Building in Sleepless in Seattle.
This is not to say that there is a lack of men out there – there are many, many single gay men. In a gay world obsessed with grooming and working out, many of these men are also of above-average attractiveness. However, they seem as inaccessible as ever when it comes to meeting for an encounter beyond a one-night stand. There are also structural factors that become impossible to ignore because they are shamelessly paraded online – these include racism, body-shaming, fem-shaming and deeply internalised homophobia. For anyone who is not white, masculine and athletic, the online world can be a harsh and demeaning place.
I fully acknowledge that the quality of men that I come across may be linked to where I happen to find them. Friends frequently tell me – “Join a running club, go to more dinner parties, do things that other single gay men do and stop only trying to meet men online!” And while this is sage, well-meaning advice, it doesn’t necessarily result in a higher success rate. For one thing, online dating and hook-ups have become as pervasive and popular as they have for good reason – it’s not that easy to simply go up to someone in real-life and casually start a flirtatious conversation that immediately proceeds to drinks. For many gay men, low self-esteem, social awkwardness and discomfort around other gay men are commonplace. These do not magically disappear in face-to-face meetings. This may explain why casual, emotionless sex is easier, why gay men have higher rates of substance abuse and often tend to combine drugs and sex.
I don’t know, maybe all the time spent online has killed off neurons in my brain that would otherwise be put to good use in real-life encounters. Either way, almost every gay man I know uses dating apps and I get the feeling that I have as much chance, if not more, of meeting Mr. Right through online dating than I do at my next half-marathon.
So, where does this leave me? Will I forever be unfulfilled and singing along to Billie Holiday’s The Man I Love?
“Someday he’ll come along, the man I love, and he’ll be big and strong, the man I love. And when he comes my way, I’ll do my best to make him stay…”
This sounds awfully close to the precise spot Sleeping Beauty found herself in – waiting, longing, hoping for a mythical man to appear. And while the fulfilment of a fairytale, with all its promises of everlasting love, is certainly very tempting, I think part of growing up is learning to embrace a different ideal. In the grown-up fairytale, I am not incomplete and unfulfilled. While I still seek love, I am not stuck in a tower, nor am I in a deathlike sleep.
Finding love is really about waking up and becoming the hero of my own story – this starts with a process of self-exploration and cultivating a deep sense of self-love, before learning to extend that love to another man.
It turns out Sleeping Beauty didn’t really need Prince Charming – all she needed was a good wake-up call.

 

From a young age, in our fairytales and favourite movies, we're generally conditioned to long for the day when we meet our Prince Charming.

Although we know it's a heteronormative Hollywood construct, it's hard to ignore that deep-seated aspiration to meet Mr Right, the perfect man, a knight in shining armour to rescue us from single life.

Sometimes, it's difficult not to feel that we're just stuck in a tower, waiting for our great romantic adventure to begin.

Obviously, for queer guys, that damsel-in-distress fantasy is a bit complicated. Exactly who are we expecting to rescue us? Who will fulfil our fantasy and sweep us off our feet? 

There's also a big difference between fairytale notions of romance and the day-to-day realities of dating as a queer guy. There's no shortage of men out there. There's no shortage of guys looking for fun or a quick connection. But you don't often come across guys who are looking for a second date, let alone a prince or a knight in shining armour.

You could make an argument that we've created a vicious cycle for ourselves, born of our own insecurities. Many queer guys struggle with low self-esteem and social anxiety. In that context, one-off transactional sex carries less risks. If there's no emotional investment required, we're not as vulnerable - we're not as likely to get hurt. Being romantic is a different ball-game. Letting someone know that you're interested in something more can feel like a terrifying proposition.

There's nothing easy about dating men, but maybe we should challenge some of our assumptions about what we're looking for in a relationship. The concept of Mr Right is fairly meaningless. Whether you have one date or you see each other for a couple of months or you end up living together - you can't measure your relationship against anything other than what's right for you.

Also, being in a relationship in no way makes you more complete or more succesful than someone who is single. We all make different choices.

None of need to be longing for a Mr Right to somehow magically complete us. We can be the hero of our own story. We can write our own narrative.

It's time to grab the crown and be the Prince Charming that you've been dreaming of.

Reader's Comments

1. 2021-09-30 04:07  
Wow, the return of Fridae's news after 10 1/2 months disappearance! Not even a word of explanation?
2. 2021-10-07 01:22  
glad its back though!
3. 2021-11-08 00:51
it just refuses to die :)

Please log in to use this feature.

Select News Edition

Featured Profiles

Now ALL members can view unlimited profiles!

Languages

View this page in a different language:

Like Us on Facebook

Partners

 ILGA Asia - Fridae partner for LGBT rights in Asia IGLHRC - Fridae Partner for LGBT rights in Asia

Advertisement