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6 Jul 2007

johann s. lee and alfian sa'at's ''happy endings''

As the much anticipated final instalment of the Asian Boys Trilogy opens next Wednesday, Fridae catches up with Johann S. Lee, who wrote Singapore's first gay novel, Peculiar Chris, in 1992 and from which Happy Endings is adapted.

It's 1991. Johann S. Lee, a 19 year-old army boy, writes Singapore's first gay novel, Peculiar Chris. It's the story of Christopher Han, a privileged young man who struggles with love, homophobia and death in school and the army - a text immediately recognised by gay readers as a moving tale and groundbreaking work, one of the precious few documents in which they can see themselves represented in a sympathetic light.

Happy Endings: Asian Boys Vol 3 stars an ensemble of both new and familiar faces including Lim Kay Siu, Karen Tan, Timothy Nga, Ben Seow and Pierre Goh.
Fast-forward to 2003. Alfian Sa'at, a playwright-cum-poet-cum-social-activist, writes an email to Johann, who's now based in London. He asks for permission to adapt Peculiar Chris into a play - but not through a direct transcription of events. He imagines writing about what happens to the characters as they grow older; even creating an imaginary author as a character in the play.

Eagerly, Johann agrees. And Alfian gets to work.

Come July 2007, we'll finally see the fruits of this idea, sixteen years in the making. Local theatre troupe W!ld Rice will stage Happy Endings: Asian Boys Vol 3, starring an ensemble of both new and familiar faces including Lim Kay Siu, Karen Tan, Timothy Nga, Ben Seow and Pierre Goh.

In conjunction with the performances, director Ivan Heng has also arranged Art and Life sessions: public forums to discuss related issues, including the illegal status of gay male sex in Singapore as upheld in the Penal Code's Section 377A and the forces of inspiration behind queer writers and artists here.

And as promised, Happy Endings will be an adaptation with a difference: Act One will narrate the events of Peculiar Chris, while Act Two will take place a decade and a half later, following the explosion in Singapore's gay culture. Johann's characters will reappear, all older and changed in some way - some of them hard-core clubbers, and others transformed into born-again conservatives.

Crucially, Alfian says he's exploring the theme of how gay men cope with ageing: an issue made more relevant by the fact that he's turning thirty this year (though he retains all his boyish waggishness and charm). It'd be fascinating to interview him about Asian Boys Vol. 1 and Landmarks: Asian Boys Vol 2, as well as his claim that this is his last gay play ever - but he's been very much in the spotlight recently, due to his sudden dismissal as a relief teacher by the Ministry of Education [Click here to read Teacher unaccountably terminated by Alex Au] - an experience which he says he's incorporated into his play.

We at Fridae have decided to interview a lesser-known figure: Johann S. Lee, the boy who started it all, back in the bad old days before Internet, PLU or even legally tolerated gay clubbing; a time before queer community, when a book was a source of vital comfort that let us know we were not alone.

Next page: Johann S. Lee talks about writing how he ended up publishing a book about his experiences after returning from a life-altering holiday in Sydney and how Alfian came to adapt it for his latest play.

Johann S. Lee wrote Peculiar Chris, Singapore's first gay novel, while serving his National Service in 1992.
æ: Age, sex, location?

Johann: 36 years exactly (as I'm being interviewed on my birthday, June 18)/ male/ London

æ: We've known you as Johann S. Lee for some time... is this your real name?

Johann: Yes, though I go by the name of Joe these days.

æ: Tell us about the writing and publishing of Peculiar Chris.

Johann: I wrote a journal entry in 1992 when I returned from a life-altering holiday in Sydney. I showed it to my best friend (Daren Shiau, now author of Peninsular and Heartland) who said, "This is good. You should write a beginning and an end, and make a novel out of it." So I did!

The book was a cathartic experience, but not autobiographical. I felt I had something to say, and I had plenty of time to put pen to paper whilst serving out my National Service in a quiet clerical role in a god-forsaken unit in Woodlands. When I say 'put pen to paper', I mean put pen to paper. I didn't have a PC at the time - every word was written in longhand, and I paid a fellow NS clerk five cents per word to type out everything in Wordstar.

None of the major publishers (TIMES, MPH, etc) would give me the time of day. I am eternally grateful to Mr Tan Wu Cheng (proprietor of Cannon International, a very small local enterprise) and his wife Alice for meeting with me and agreeing to publish my writing.

Peculiar Chris went to print with no editing at all. In fact, in the first edition, the word 'embarrassed' was misspelt as 'embarassed' in every instance.

æ: When and why did you leave Singapore? What was being gay in Singapore like in those days?

Johann: I left Singapore in September 1992 to read Law at King's College London, about three months after R.O.D. and a month after Peculiar Chris was published. In truth, my raison d'tre at the time was to run away from family, from Singapore... to be free... to be, well, gay.

In the early 1990s, there was no 'gay scene' as such in Singapore, and no Internet. As I recall, gay men converged at places like Plaza Singapura, Raffles City, The Warehouse (a disco in River Valley, across the river from Zouk, which opened around that time). There was a gay Sunday nighter but it kept moving from one venue to another because the police kept raiding it and closing it down.

æ: How is life different for you now in the UK? (Dare I ask if you're still single and available?)

Johann: I now work in a large professional services firm in London, where I am openly gay and immensely proud of the organisation's commitment to the Diversity agenda. In all my years in London, I have never experienced discrimination because of my sexuality. I have been single for the last five years.

æ: Do you still visit Singapore? Are you in touch with the gay scene here?

Johann: An annual visit to Singapore is a must as I have family and close friends there. When I do visit I tend not to go to the gay venues, though I confess I have been to The Towel Club once!

I don't particularly enjoy the gay scene, not anymore, not even in London. As for Singapore, I have mixed feelings about how the scene has evolved, but will reserve comment until I have seen Alfian's play.

æ: Tell us about your involvement with the collaboration.

Johann: When Alfian first got in touch with me several years ago requesting permission to adapt Peculiar Chris, I didn't have a clue who he was. So I asked my friend Daren Shiau, who described Alfian as 'a prodigious young talent, the Singapore arts scene's enfant terrible'. Alfian sent me Asian Boys Vol. 2 to read, which I did. It made me laugh, made me think, made me cry, made me seethe. And so I said 'yes' to him instantly, and unconditionally. When I found out later that Ivan Heng was to direct, I knew the project was in very safe hands. I am extremely comfortable with having zero artistic input into Happy Endings, and have complete faith in Alfian and Ivan's joint artistic vision.

Some really nice things have been said about Peculiar Chris over the years. The word I used to describe my state of mind when the book hit the shelves was 'incredulity'. In the years thereafter, what followed was a period of embar(r)assment that someone actually allowed my gawky post-adolescent ramblings to go to print. But these days, I'm feeling a new kind of incredulity. And it's nice. I can't wait for the opening night of Happy Endings, and I am counting on those around me to pinch me throughout the show.

Action For Aids is negotiating plans to reprint Peculiar Chris in conjunction with the play. The charity will receive benefits directly from the proceeds. Older editions of the novel can be found at the Pelangi Pride Centre Library.

W!ld Rice presents:
Happy Endings: Asian Boys Vol.3 (18 and above)
Produced by W!ld Rice
Date: 11 - 29 July 2007
Time: Tue-Fri, 8pm; Sat-Sun, 3pm and 8pm
Venue: Drama Centre Theatre
Tickets: Preview Shows
(11 & 12 July) 8PM
S$48, S$43, S$38, S$33, S$33(Restricted View)
Tues-Thurs & Sun Evening 8PM, Sat & Sun Matinee 3PM
S$53, S$48, S$43, S$38, S$38(Restricted View)
Fri & Sat Evening 8PM
S$58, S$53, S$48, S$43, S$43(Restricted View)
Excludes $2 Sistic Booking Fee
Available at Sistic

The Art & Life Sessions
Engage with the most interesting, forward thinking minds of our "concerned citizenry" to reflect and debate the issues raised and challenged by Happy Endings.

Venue: Function Room, Drama Centre @ National Library Level 3
15 July 5:30pm - PECULIAR LEGISLATION: S377A - Symbol or Statute?
22 July 5:30pm - PECULIAR ADAPTATIONS: Crossing Mediums - Fresh Afterlife or The Living Dead?
29 July 5.30pm - PECULIAR INSPIRATIONS: The Muse - Of Sirens and Tyrants

Feedback Fridays
Enrich your theatre-going experience. Meet the Artist and discuss what you've seen at a post-show discussion immediately following each Friday evening's performance (20 & 27 July).


1. 2007-07-07 01:46  
Peculiar Chris was the first book about being gay that I ever read. Yi Sheng is right, it was an immense comfort at the time... and I was only 12!

2. 2007-07-07 15:08  
Hey Johann,
You'll be glad to know that your "gawky post-adolescent ramblings" once made a great impression on a young man who was coming to terms with himself 15 years ago.(I'm 35 this year)
I still remember someone passed me the book when I just completed my NS and was in my early university days. After reading your book, I was truely touched by your story and was thinking can I get to know this guy?...hehe...
Back in those days where gay activities were hush hush and internet were non-existent, your book really helped me to get in terms with my own sexuality and to know that I'm not alone and being gay isn't really that "Peculiar".
Please accept a Toast from me dude!
3. 2007-07-07 23:46  
Hey Joe

I read Peculiar Chris years ago when I had just come back from the US and back into the closet. I was 27 then, in 1992, and was not really out yet. Having lived in the US and the UK it was like walking back into the closet. But Peculiar Chris gave me that glimmer of hope that perhaps I wasn't alone in this neck of the woods and that set me to discovering the local gay scene. My partner and I now live with my parents in KL and we've been together for 7 years.

In it's own way, your book had an impact on my life and the direction it took in my own hometown.

Thanks man.

5. 2007-07-08 13:49  
I read PC in one 4 hour sitting, by the poolside when the book was first published, so engrossed that I forgot to to turn and hence got royally baked and burnt on 1 side only - something I will not forget (the book, nor the peeling afterwards).

I had the opportunity to work with Johann (on stage) when we were still "kids" (I was 15, he was 16) in school, and it's simply grand to see how time unfolds and events come full circle.

Kudos to you, Johann on touching so many lives with your book. When's the next instalment?
6. 2007-07-08 17:06  
Hey Guys

It's Johann here. Thanks so much for your lovely comments. I can't quite express what it feels like to hear them after all these years.

At the time of the interview above, I was still in London. I arrived in Singapore a few days ago and yesterday, I met the cast and crew of Happy Endings for the first time and saw a full run-through without ever having read the script.

The combination of Alfian's script, Ivan's directing, and the performances of the gorgeous and talented cast totally blew me away.

Please go and see the show, and tell your friends to go see the show. It's not just about PC; there are some wider, important messages embedded in the play which as Singaporean gay men we should all hear.

Thanks again for reading.

Yours sincerely,
Johann S Lee
13. 2007-07-11 02:59  
This is for Joe, Alfian, Ivan, the fabulous cast and everyone else involved in this production. love, jf.
15. 2007-07-15 09:35  
Just attended ABV3. Thank u all for an excellent time in the theatre. To take Peculiar Chris's bold step and run into the present, to shout out the injustices of the treatment of our people, to tell us that saunas and pubs are NOT ENOUGH, to link who we are now to our formative years, to address the current on-going battle between gays and 'ex-gays', to dare give us a happy ending, to give voice to that little sissy part of us so many of us buried in secondary school. Thank u Ivan, Alfian, Kay Siu and cast, and most of all to Johann! This is the best gay play I've ever seen in Singapore! Everybody, GO WATCH! - Otto Fong
16. 2007-07-27 15:06  
I read the book round about the time it was published. It was especially emotional for me 'cos i suddenly realised that I wasn't alone. Being 17 and gay in those days was a constant struggle. Daily. To come to terms with who I was and why I had turned out this way. It wasn't deemed natural and I hated myself for being the way I was. The book made me to realise that there were others growing up in the very same environment and experiencing very similar situations. In retrospect, like Chris, I went through JC, then NS as a clerk. My most formative years were spent here wondering why I was different from other boys. I still have a copy of the book, quite yellowed now. About 3 years ago, I contacted the publisher and bought the last 2 copies they could find in their store. One was sent to a close friend in Manchester and the other to an Aussie friend in Sydney. My friend in Manchester grew up here in Singapore and was a JC mate. She told me that it felt like I was telling her my story through the book. Almost as if I was talking to her while she read. The Aussie friend on the other hand, couldn't appreciate the nuances of the story, understandably. When I watched Happy Endings, the emotions came flooding back.

Ivan Wong
17. 2008-09-13 12:43  
Dear johann,

I hav only finish both of ur books this month, am kinda out-dated (obviously!) but as a saying goes..it's better late than never! Though i kinda struggled with ur immersely rich vocad, both were overall hilarious and touching..too bad i miss the play, nonetheless, i hope that u will write more interesting books in the near future & it will be great if the play can be re-staged so that those who miss the great performance can hav a chance to experience its magical moments again..it will be great if u can response to this post of mine, juz curious how u resemble..tks 4 reading & hav a nice everyday :)

Best Regards



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