I am HIV positive.
I am good looking (self-proclaimed) and have a hot body (eight pack included). Back then, I could get any guy I wanted for sex. There was this guy, A , who had confessed to me but I rejected him due to my superficiality. A was your typical geek. We remained in contact with each other from time to time though because I needed help with my IT problems. I guess you could say I was only making use of him.
When I was diagnosed with HIV, words spread quickly and soon my so-called “”friends”” were all avoiding me like the plague. That became my darkest moment in life. I still remember vividly it was a cold, rainy day that year. As I walked drenched in the rain to the bus stop, it was where I saw A. He smiled at me and I just cried. Somehow I told him about what happened. What he did next surprised me.
He gave me a hug.
At that moment, I felt it was the warmest bodily sensation that I’ve received. A told me he had lost a kin to AIDS and was very much empathetic about my situation. From then on, A contacted me more often to show his moral support. It was then and there that I felt loved, and that there was someone in this world who would be really upset if I had died.
Slowly but surely, I knew I was starting to fall for the person behind that geeky spectacles. But I did not have the courage to confess given my status. And when I finally did, what he said next touched me.
"I’ll be here with you, forever and ever."
It’s been three years now since we’re together. A, thank you very much. Thank you for giving me a second chance when I had spurned it previously. It’s a long journey but I am thankful that you are still by side. I love you.
P.S.: A has transformed from a geek to a hunky geek. At first he followed me to the gym because he was worried about me, but now we spend time as a couple together gymming. Who knew he had that much potential! But being with A has taught me to look beyond the physical aspects of a person, we now grow together spiritually.
P.P.S After reading through the bittersweet confession about B and G, I felt I had to post this.