Perhaps, a long self intro is a bit too much. Just put it here is better.

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I have a calm temperament. Happiness eventually returns to its baseline. Instead of constant thrill-seeking, I prefer things like meditation and gratitude that lead to spontaneous and natural joy.

I’m a perpetual learner with a growth mindset, from German, calligraphy, arts and crafts to more technical stuff like coding and investment. I never feel bored of being alone. I try my best to focus on things I can control and live in presence, not to regret the past nor worry about the future. I enjoy reading and regular exercise to shape up both brains and brawn.

I choose not to be so rational in a romantic relationship. If I’m rational all the time, I don’t need anyone significant to enjoy life. Physical attraction matters in the first place. I, however, zoom in person’s values (e.g., loyalty, kindness, agreeableness, generosity) instead of their traits (e.g., looks, level of success). How much he values and make effort in a relationship…… Respect and trust are the essential ingredients in a good, long-lasting relationship.

Disclaimer: what I wrote here is ideal. Sometimes I’m shy, timid, and weak. Everyone has their weakness whether they like it or not. I accept my weakness and live with it. A tiny improvement of weakness is worth a celebration.

东方之珠的同健团体新加入的会員中， X 和 D (两个都小我二十多岁) 得知我在加州学过按摩，就要见识一下。

我们一起到同志浴室，淋浴后，新客 D 战战兢兢地跟着我俩，亦步亦趋穿过阴暗走廊，一同进了小房间栓上门，不管旁人怎么猜想。

先检查他俩指甲，都修剪了。我让 D 俯卧在地上还算干净的褥子，安抚这斯文四眼小生说，只按摩背后，不碰小鸟。

随后对 X 说凉凉的按摩油不可直接滴在 D 背上，应用双手搓搓油才涂身，动作要慢，精神专注，力道适中。

D 接受四手按摩之后，轮到 X 躺下， D 协助我施予按摩。

最后我建议玩个游戏，他俩同意了。我们就做出高低呻吟，装着很享受高潮的哼哼哎哎，越来越大声。不久，抬头看到墙顶露出好几张面孔要看 3P 。三人都笑歪了。

Noida: “Safety saves sickness, suffering and sadness. Every accident is a notice that something is wrong with men, methods or material. We must investigate and then act. Do not think because an accident has not happened to you that it cannot happen. Prepare and prevent, do not repair and repent. The pandemic has brought some new norms to our living habits, we have to include them now in our system,” said Dr. Sandeep Marwah President of Marwah Studios in a webinar to discuss security and safety of Film personal during 13th Global Film Festival Noida 2020.

“The most interesting thing in the industry is there is no fixed rate, there is no rate list and with every film you have to depend for your own remuneration. How difficult it is, no security of what you are going to get after so many years and even after so many films,” said Panchi Jalonvi renowned writer.

Amreeta Roy renowned film maker expressed in details the prevailing conditions of the industry and the ruthlessness of managers, cleanliness problems, unorganised way of shootings, decisions in haphazard manner etc. which still exist. Shelter is another very big problem here she added.

“Industry status has not been utilised fully. Right from transport to shooting locations, refreshment brakes, timings for the people, timely payments ample has been done but a lot to be done. Covid 19 has done some wonders to the system.  We have to institutionalize the system to convince government to support the industry,” said Mukesh Tyagi a popular member of the industry.

“There are enough rules and regulations which every member of the industry supposed to know when he joins industry in any capacity. The systems and procedures are old in nature needs rectifications,” said Ameet Mehta Legal advisor to Association of Film workers.

“New rules and regulations have already brought down to practice in every shooting, production and where post production is taking place. The industry has just opened  and every one moving according to new normal. We have immediately adopted and adapted the norms of pandemic also. Large funds have been collected from good people and distributed to the most needed people of the industry. We are busy and over cautious about the current situation,” said B.N.Tiwari President of FWICE- Federation of Western India Cine Employees while answering many questions.

Peter Ferris an actor and film maker from London UK also spoke about the methods and conditions at UK film industry. Anoop Bose Film Maker and Lawyer, Ravindra Singh Rajawat film maker, Reyhna Pandit actor also contributed to the discussion.

The event was supported by International Film And Television Club, International Film And Television Research Centre, International Public Broadcasting Forum, International Children’s Film Forum, International Women’s Film Forum and AAFT University of Media And Arts.

Distance made it so much clearer. 
Love made it blind and ignorant. 
Had you realised it sooner, would you have chose otherwise?

I wouldn't.
But for your sake, I would.
For your sake. 
For you.

Why we were born gay? Why??

Noida: “Cinema has itself faced many challenges like popularity of television programs, discovery of new formats from video to DVDs, Piracy of films, closure of theatres, strikes and difference of opinions, Internet and easy availability of foreign films but still it has emerged out of all hinderances and blocks and even today is the most popular and reasonable source of entertainment for the masses. Pandemic has almost broken the leg, it is the passion of film makers which has served enough blood to the industry to survive in every odd condition,” said Dr. Sandeep Marwah President of 13th Global Film Festival Noida 2020 initiating in the seminar -Potential and Challenges of Cinema industry.

“Nobody should enter in the industry without the proper education and training of cinema. The aspirant will be wasting his as well the precious time of production organizations. Even a small course can take you to better position,” said Faraz Akhtar AAFT Alumnus and film director known for his films War Chhord Na Zaar, Ticket to Bollywood, Nannu Ki Janu and now Mere Desh Ki Dharti.

AAFT Alumnus Satyen Bhruth film director from Mauritius emphasized more on the Small budget films and independent producer’s finance problems. “we have subjects but making cinema is now beyond control. We need some agencies where we can ask for finance,” he said.

“Ample films have been produced here but I think the biggest challenge is the marketing and sale of cinema. India is only 4 percent of World cinema market. 96 percent is not yet utilized. You have to tap now international market for the sale and exhibition of your films. The potential is unbelievable right now,” said Ramesh Meer Chief Creative Director & CEO of The FX Factory.

Ashok Tyagi Secretary General ICMEI, Albeena Abbas Diector AAFT, Sushil Bharti Director Radio Noida 107.4Fm, Manish Sharma AAFT Alumnus and Director, Zahir Naqvi AAFT Alumnus and cinematographer also extended their views on the demand and need of talented people in the industry.

The event was supported by International Film And Television Research Centre, International Public Broadcasting Forum, International Children’s Film Forum and International Women’s Film Forum along with AAFT University of Media And Arts.

孤枕难眠的半夜，是往事唱起一首首歌，还是心灵敲击起那些年那些歌？又是一个只能自己微笑的夜晚。

handsome、sexy，近来可好？都忘了你的样子。

张惠妹《我最亲爱的》

陳曉東-我比誰都清楚

黃小琥 沒那麼簡單

陳百強 Danny Chan -《當我想起你》

每一個人，都有自己深藏的故事，只是，找不到合適的人訴說，等有合適的人了，我們又發現，不合時機，事情總是這樣陰差陽錯。 

往事逐漸成為了自己內心永久而不為外人所知的風景，看到別人繼續上演著自己曾經歷過的痛徹心扉，我們只報以會心的一笑，卻不會過多的言語。 

有時候，不爭就是慈悲，不辯就是智慧，不聞就是清淨，不看就是自在，不貪就是布施，斷惡就是行善，原諒就是解脫，知足就是放下，利人就是利己。 

人與人要能相處和睦，最重要的一點是：不要拿自己的生活方式去要求別人。

水一旦流深，就會發不出聲音。人的感情一旦深厚，也就會顯得淡薄。

So we go through many phases in life. 
From starting school all the way to graduating university.
From starting professional degree all the way to landing your first prestige career. 
From launching your career to forming partnerships and owning your own business.

Ah, the wonderful smell of success and achievement. What a milestone. 

Then covid hit, and then you found yourself, scrambling to find a balanced ground. 
You become lost, you don't see the light, you drown in darkness.

Then you asked yourself, all the while, while you're at the top, what did you really have?

Money.

And guess what, as fast as you earn it, you lose it equally as fast as well. Whilst you may be able to sustain it, able to invest it, or perhaps you're passively re-gaining it, what does it do really?

You're still in despair. 

Don't lose sight of what's important for your soul for mere currencies that you can't carry beyond this earth. 

Noida: “Media and Entertainment Industry has touched around Rs 2,35000 crore turnover last year. This year the industry has been badly hit by Corona Virus, but the best part is that people associated with this industry have neither lost the enthusiasm nor the excitement of being part of this beautiful and glamorous industry. The event organizers and social workers have put in their best to keep the audience busy and diverted them from this heinous Covid 19,” said Dr. Sandeep Marwah President of 13th Global Film Festival Noida 2020 as a keynote speaker.

“The expected turnover in 2023 should be 3,00,000 crores, it is important to keep the morals of the event organizers, managers and social workers high. ICMEI has decided to constitute a new award for these social organizations who have done well even during Pandemic. An international award under the name and banner of ICMEI EXCELLENCE AWARD for the contribution to Media And Entertainment Industry was presented during 13th Global Film Festival Noida 2020 to some of the proactive organizations.

The awards were announced and presented by Dr. Sandeep Marwah who himself is a known event organizer and have contributed to the society through many different organizations.

Princess Angelique Monet of World Peace Initiative- Artisan Festival International USA, Abdul Dewale Mohammed of Africa Asia Scholars Global Network UK, Peter Ferris of Ferris Entertainment UK,  Indrajit Ghosh of MSME Chamber of Commerce, Smita Srivastava of Confluence, Suman Maheshwari of Rajasthan Academy, Bhavisha Buddhdeo of RootSkills, Jitender of SME Bizz Business Networking Star Club, Anju Handa of She Connects, Gaurav Gupta of Lions Club of Delhi Veg., Aditya Tikku of Global Counter Terrorism Council, Kumar Rakesh of India World Foundation and Dr. Vaidehi Taman of Afternoon English Daily Newspaper were the awardees.

U.S. Sonthalia of Fame India, Reena Tyagi of Global Seas Institute, Ram Avtar of Footvolley Association of India, Rishabh Malhotra of Inventivereneur Chamber of Commerce And Industries, Jayashankar Menon of Indian Basketball Players Association, , Bharat Ghai of Dreamcatchers, Rhythm Dutta of DEARC Entertainment, Pranab of EDuTV, Ravindra Bhandari of Bharat Nirman, Anurag Rastogi of Avishkar, J.P.Singh of Indian Skills Development Council, , Bharat Gauba of Shoobh Group, Dr. Antony Raju of News And Broadcasting  Networks and Sahdev Rout- All India Football Tennis were honored with prestigious ICMEI Award.

Mandeep Singh Chatwal of Punjab Chamber of Commerce Shiv Kakran of Trident Communications UK, Illa Rani Sharma of Futnet Federation of India, Mohd. A K Ashraf of Footvolley Association of India, Amit Goenka of Indian Achievers Forum, M.U.Dua of All India Human Rights Association, Nemi Singh Premi of International Human Rights Organization, Acharya Satyendra Narayan of Confederation of World Religion and Prof. Nabhit Kapoor of Peacful Mind were decorated with ICMEI international award by International Chamber of Media and Entertainment Industry.

彼氏さんと、エロビデオの好みを話してて、それ、まんま、セックスでしたいことじゃん！って思った。＜笑＞

僕は、服装のフェティッシュも無い。むしろ早く脱いで、おっ始めて欲しいって思う。嫌がるのを無理やり犯すのは、論外。大っ嫌い。だから、お金のためにノンケがビデオに出てるやつなんかは、全く面白くない。そんな冷凍マグロ、見てて面白くない。むしろ、お互いに、お互いがやりたいタイミングが合致して、お互いを気持ち良くさせようとしてやってるセックスが好き。

って言ったら、彼氏さんが、「そんなにつまらないのが好きなの？」「そんなビデオほとんど無いでしょう？」と。いやー、それが結構あるんだな。それに、それはつまらなく無いのですよ。あなたは、自分が見たいものだけ見ているんでしょう？って感じですね。お互い様ですけどね。それから、僕は自分が「多数派だ」とは全然言っていない。

道理で、僕が嫌がっても、やめないわけだ。それで萌えちゃうのね。みたいな。僕の方は、家庭内レイプだって感じていたんだけど。

在美国我找到从未有过的同志青春期，稍微品尝同志生活的一些情趣。 

在三藩市，朋友带我去见识 water sport。那男同志俱乐部只允许会员带人进去。屋外灯光不亮，屋里更加幽暗，摆着很多饮水机。室内摆着几个大浴缸，都有人躺在缸里，或穿衣，或赤裸，个个引颈期待，流露渴望眼神。缸边的人对他们撒尿浇头浇身，他们就连声 thank you thank you.

哗，大人玩小孩子游戏！我登时童心大发，忙忙去灌饱水，一有尿意就向人撒尿。看到对方恳切的神情，忍俊不禁，笑歪了。对方不以为意，依然道谢连连。我泡了尿再去灌水，来来回回，玩到尽兴。

后来探访洛杉矶的哥哥时谈起这玩意儿，意犹未尽。他虽然接受我的同志身份，却觉得 water sport 很变态。我只好不多讲，心里仍然沾沾自喜。

Noida: “The most badly effected segment of entertainment Industry during Pandemic is the Events. A huge loss of revenue has occurred either because of cancellation or postponement of the shows. Entertainment has changed its shape. Everything has come to mobiles, computers and television Channels. There is a need to look for more,” said Dr. Sandeep Marwah President 13th Global Film Festival Noida 2020 initiating the seminar-Need of Events in Entertainment Industry.

“Many community events are planned months or even a year in advance, but with so many unknowns amid the pandemic this hasn’t been possible. Now that the prime event season of summer is here, with many communities’ best-loved events cancelled, it is still possible to plan events with shorter notice and provide a source of hope, positivity and connection for your community,” said Dr. Sanjeev Layek of WASME.

“It will be important for events to adhere to the new safety guidelines. That is the way events can be resorted and we can move further,” added Indrajit Ghosh of MSME Chamber of Commerce

“Live musical performances and music festivals are among the best-loved types of events but can be very difficult to plan given the ever-changing guidelines and public health restrictions,” said Peter Ferris of Ferris Entertainment, London, United Kingdom.

“Hosting meetings and events post COVID-19 would require people and event management companies adjusting on a large scale. It would require a combined effort of all the sectors to kickstart the industry again,” said Abdul Mohammed Dewale President AASGON London, UK.

“One of the real problems the industry would face in the long run is that it would be tough to re-organize an event when they don’t have any timescale. As there is no specific time limit of complete eradication of COVID-19 or its control, it is hard to predict any rescheduling of events soon said Princess Angelique Monet an American multi-media talent and former Ms. Black South Carolina USA.

Gaurav Gupta of Lions Club of Delhi Veg., Rhythm Dutta of DEARC Entertainment, Dr. Vaidehi Taman of Afternoon English Daily also expressed their views during seminar. Later the seminar was followed by award function. Some of the best event and social organizations were honoured with ICMEI Excellence Award for their sincere contribution to media and Entertainment Industry.

Hmm Hmm, need take some deep breath before start the writing .. I believe this is a tough year for everyone as no one know these ( COVID 19 ) will be crazy surround the world , lock down , CMCO , market lack of mask , hand sanitizer , rush out for foods, grocery before lock down , like big war coming ( I think most of person facing the same ) ,  never ever think that when you cross state need permit , every highway with police & army .. no more freedom simply to be here and there .. for all student zoom study .. not only student need to use to it but is teacher also need learning to teach online .. everyone know 5G how important is that ..  

These Covid 19 like a revenge to human , as we all get lock down in homes and the animal , plants have their space to enjoy the worlds , remind the humans the worlds is not only belong to us and please stay respectful and appreciated for everything’s .. 

During the lock down period , I’m proud that I finally learn cooking , it not in my retire - to do list anymore haha ... 2020 is a record year that I never join in any karaok ..

Every year by month of Oct , Nov I will have my new target for a brand new year , but this year I a bit lost and stressful , too many unexpected things happened , the pain on 15Jun , almost lost my parents and sis and more .. 

So what my next year target , hmm hmm , WXXXXXX just like Jack ma before have Ali baba and he told you join in them , will you have faith to him .. I think most of the people will say no and when after Alibaba is up , you will say haiyaa ( IF .... ) ..he have been using so many year to become today successful , I must at least have faith to WXXXXXX for 1 more year .. hope 2021 covid all gone , vaccines will help us on Q1-2021 ..

Keep Stay Safe & Have Faith . 

So it's different this time.  Why? 

Cause you felt covid is an exceptional situation to have found one another, you felt it's godsent that this girl is the destined one. 

Well, wake up and smell the coffee. You're no exception.
Having lived her life for few decades, what makes you think she can't live without you? 

Reality check, she's having the time of her life. Without you.

You're just another ex, move on.

人生匆匆，轉瞬就是幾十年，一路走來，一路聆聽。人生，就是一個修煉的過程，何必用這一顆不平的心，作賤了自己，傷害了歲月。生活中，不妨養成'有，很好; 沒有，也沒關係'的習慣，便能轉苦為樂。

活著，就是一種修行! 有些話，適合藏在心裡，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記，有些回憶，只適合偶爾拿出來回味，很多事情，當經歷過，自己知道就好，很多改變，不需要說出來，自己明白就好。

生活是一件艱難的事情，追求自己想要的生活更是如此，因為你不但要有勇氣面對他人的質疑，面對世俗的挑戰，更要有勇氣面對自己可能一事無成的後果。如果你做到了也許無人鼓掌，但如果你做不到卻有可能淪為他人茶餘飯後的笑柄。我尊敬那些敢於打破常規的人們，尊敬他們敢於承擔後果的勇氣。

最近的我慢慢的才知道：堅持未必就是勝利，放棄未必就是認輸。給自己一個迂迴的空間，學會思索，學會等待，學會調整。人生沒有假設，當下即是全部。背不動的，就放下;傷不起的，就看淡;想不通的，就不想;恨不過的，就撫平吧!

Noida: “We are lucky to have now the extension of a film city in Noida. Its been 30 years we have been nurturing and cultivating the city. The existing film city has become the fastest growing film city in this part of the World. Seventy-five acres outdoor and twenty-five acres indoors with sixteen studios, are house to three hundred fifty channels. Seventeen thousand media professionals are working in the city and center is catering to more than hundred thousand people as far as bread earning is concerned,” informed Dr. Sandeep Marwah founder of film city and President of Global Film Festival Noida.

“I may not be directly connected to Noida Film City but I know that Indo Romanian Film And  Cultural Relations have taken a new shape being started from Marwah Studios of Noida Film City,” said H.E. Radu Octavian Dobre Ambassador of Romania to India while talking about  Romanian political, cultural and economic ties with India in the capacity of Chief Guest.” I presume that Noida Film City Extension is going to be the biggest film city of India which you all need being the biggest film producers of the World,” added Radhu Dobre.

“Uttar Pradesh has everything what a film maker is looking for. Infrastructure, man power, a powerful film institution, aptitude towards cinema, Cinema lovers and goers, locations, historical monuments, buildings, villages, city and government subsidy. The new film city is going to be a great success,” said Tarun Kumar CA & advisor to Ministry of Finance.

“The most important thing is to have a professional attitude towards film making. Rest everything can be managed. The new film city in Noida will bring boom in film production in this part of the country. It is no way competition to Mumbai film business,” said Pankuj Parashar renowned film maker from Mumbai.

Popular music director Dilip Sen, film journalist and AAFT Alumnus Romail Gulzar from London, casting Director Sushma Kaul, film Director Sanjeev Tyagi and actor Priyanka Chauhan also expressed their views on the subject. The program was conducted by Albeena and festival director Ashok Tyagi paid vote of thanks.

The festival is presented by International Film & Television Club of Marwah Studios in association with International Chamber of Media & Entertainment Industry and AAFT University of Media & Arts.

I lie awake while you sleep, diminishing the chances we'd meet in our dreams, reducing the likelihood of your nightmare.

How'd it evolved to this?

When relationship comes into play, what do you do with your friendships?

Can you imagine having to toss away a few decades old friendship over a few weeks old relationship? No, you say? Don't lie.

That's what people do, thats the reality unfortunately. Bite it. 

And when break ups happen, who do you turn to? Ditto, you go back to that old friendship cause that's all you have, that's what forgives you, that's what accepts you, and that's what loves you no matter how idiotic you are. 

Be grateful of your friendships. I believe, truly believe, its more longlasting than being in love.

"Ich liebe dich auch."

What does this even mean, after all the dramas and hardship you put me through.... 

"Gar nichts. Lass mich in ruhe!".