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Dizzy ... Everything seems to spin.... Close my eyes, my life story seems to be playing in my mind.... Is it time?  I remember one master said...when one is ready to leave this world her life story will run thru in their mind..... 

Opened my eyes...was 4am...where am I? Closed my eyes... My younger days... Travelling, fun, adventurous.....

Opened my eyes it's 6am... Where am I? Oh hospital..

Thank God,  am still alive... 10th day here... Things are slowly settling...  I hope one by one will just disappear from the huge plate awaiting for me out there int eh reality world.

Sometimes I wish I can go into a no worries no problems no illness no negativity world.... Everything is happy, fun loving, carefree fill with positivity, loads of love and care world.... 

Reality kicks in.... What is awaiting for me out there... I will brace myself up to face what come may.... 

Open my eyes again already 7am... You came into my mind... similarities, same taste..

coincidence? Interesting! Intriguing! Quiet charm... 

Time waits for noone ... Treasure each second.... Fighting!

More alert... stil weak..but feeling better than the sat few days.

life is such roller coaster.... must still be grateful am alive and can still breathe and feel and see... 

it has not been easy... still have things still ongoing investigations...hope to get to the bottom of it soon..

Human mind... it's v easy to think negative but needs effort to think positive...once you start practicing gratitude, positivity can creep into u... will work towards getting discharged

With the intravenous antibiotics drip..slept for the longest time.. 12 hours...didn't even know Dr came by to draw more bloods.. 

Lucky didn't put me back to high dependency ward...in normal ward can now on my iPad anytime I want ... 

Feel rested..

Fever subsiding...

Feel some positive energy...thank you!

Hope to get my hp back soon.

Hope will be a good week for me.and everyone too!

真的超久没进来了

看回这里之前写的post

怎么那么有创意啊

哈哈哈哈哈

嗯哼

留下痕迹

原来这里依然少人啊

嗯嗯

来这个post呼吁一下

有兴趣脱单的

可以了解一下

今年37了

稳定事业

其他的

想了解就联络我吧

话说我比较喜欢h/p呀

谢谢大家

Hmmm just when I thought I can be home..things developed further. Fever knocked me out last two days and infection also became a nuisance in my body.

Intravenous antibiotics given....Dr says need to be here till this clears. Dr say hope this is the correct treatment, otherwise things may get complicated. I suddenly felt like I'm some guinea pig.

Just need to pray this is the correct treatment.

I'm glad my aunt is gettg better and out of ICU in high dependency ward now. Hope she can get well soon. 

Both of us in same hospital 🤦 but at least non life threatening for now.

All other issues are also slowly getting some light... Still ongoing investigations but things are more positive for now 

I do not have my hp for the last three days... Think this is the longest time I'm.ever disconnected haha..hope to have my hp back soon

 Lucky now have my new iPad still can get some news and pen my thoughts.

Mind is still all over the place... Hope everything can be smooth from today onwards...

Am grateful for family support , and all well wishes and prayers for me n aunty.

Gratitude to the team of drs n nurses 

Gratitude that I am still alive 

Gratitude for everything that has happened... 

妳還好嗎？我很想妳。每一次看到大海都會很想妳。我还记得上一趟旅行为了一直让妳看到海，心情和工作可以放鬆，帶你去了一個被海圍繞一直可以看到海的地方。妳后来把和我一起在海邊看日落的情境挂上封面图几年了，直到今年六月妳拿下了，我的心痛了一段時間。其实我一直都没有忘记妳，而且还很爱妳想妳。但我目前沒办法给妳任何了，包括妳之前一直說的情緒價值。请允许我慢慢治愈，希望妳可以找到幸福。

Wishing all a blessed 2026!

01.01.2026

i believe this year will be a better year! 

There is light at the end of the tunnel .... one by one...solving status....

✨✨✨💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🥂🥂🥂❤️❤️❤️

Whilst I'm more awake and less unwell...just penned my thoughts to wrap up 2025...

faced these during 2025

welcome new borns into the family..hugs

send off elderly and also not so elderly to paradise ...thank you and goodbye! Till we meet again!

one aunt still fighting strongly...

they are all so v dear to me... some shaped my life, some was always my supporter in everything i do, one wholeheartedly love me and support me from afar without fail....

Life is such..... roller coaster year...all times high and all time low is what has happened in 2025.... until the last few days I was still being thrown off the course.....plus added issues that needed the help of our authorities. 

I will stand strong, solve one by one....till then, I can only say sorry and thank you to the ones that wanted to come near...you let me experienced love n intense feelings once again, unfortunately this is not the right time....my time mayb once again shorten with this new health scare episode.... it's just not fair to you.

life Is short, we are on earth on borrowed times... live life to the fullest! When the time comes to leave, we can leave heads high...

ticking off bucket list of things...

last few hours of 2025, let me enjoy these moments amidst all the fears n doubts of the issues...

Looking forward to welcoming the new year! Thank you to everyone! Even those who read my notes here but nv said hi...thank you! 

Cheers to all ! 🥂🥂🥂

good health, wealth, happiness and success to everyone ! 💐🍀🥳✨🥰😍😘🎊🎁🍍🧧❤️❤️❤️🥂🥂🥂

Thank god this high fever kicked in today after I said my peace wz aunty...didn't realized my body is not taking all these too well...all the shocks ...I m banned from visiting aunty since last night. I tot I was getting better supposed to go home this evening but fever suddenly climbed up to ...39.8 degrees celcius...more blood test..drips and a cold sponging soon. 

But glad aunty is stablized ... a glimmer of light....

The women in the family are fighters.... aunt has not given up...she is fighting on...she knows I am waiting for her....I m also fighting my fever......but I have thught thru when I woke up from my unconsciousness last evening....already told her it's okie to let go... I don't want her to suffer. After I spoke to hear, her tears roll...everyone copycat me and told her how much they love her and it's okie to let go..miraculously she has stabilized ....if she pulls thru past today..dr says 50_50...amazing from like no chance get ready be prepared to now...I tell u these few days really roller coaster... 

My other cases not settled but there are some clues...which I m happy the authorities are getting some idea... hope they can crack this... they are so smart..

glad to hv New iPad to play with in between else I will go crazy....just to take my mind off... solving problem by problems ....

I will eventually get out of stack....medically I hope to be discharged this evening...hope the fever subsides...hope to go back to my own nest.... God please continue to protect me n my love ones... keep us away from the dark n evil .... 

Am glad aunt is a fighter... This afternoon, there is a change of in her vitals mayb she heard me crying and asking her to comeback to help me

Can I see a glimer of lights... God bless us all...

Physically and mentally tired... Thanks to people who left me messages of encouragement. Thank you! 

29 December 2025....Darkness fell into my life....

Within a short span of three days.... Many many things happened suddenly....thrown me off guard. 

Life is such a joke. December 2025 is a crazy month.. unbelievable month, so unreal... so painful 😖 

Beginning of Dec started plain and peaceful.

20 Dec - 25 Dec I thought wow life is gettg better and exciting and anticipating a beautiful loving future.

26 Dec nightmare happens suddenly so many things happened, it's just so scary. My life is thrown apart...darkness crept in, many questions and doubts.. police investigation kicked in as well after we went to file the report...aunty suddenly collapsed and then get better then in coma...she holds the key to some answers I need in my life...will I get an answer? Pray God, please let her wake up! Her vitals are not too good....God please.... 

These past three days... Took a toil on my health as well... Fainted, on drip, blood tests...some results out..not so good news.... I feel drowning...I try to get myself together...

Looking back in life... It was not smooth sailing, roller coaster as well but I survived so I am grateful.

Gratitude to everyone in my life.. gratitude to all things good and bad. Everything happens for a reason. Must still count my blessing. Must still thank God.

For 12 years..I didn't step back in Church. This Christmas I finally went home. God is great,  God shown me signs... I believe the next day when all these happened HE must have his reasons. 

I surrender my life to God, all the.darkness, troubles, uncertainty, fear, doubts, I surrender to you! I cannot handle this..it's beyond me. Thank God for my immediate family who has stepped up to protect me and support me.

I am still human....I still hope to have some answers to have a closure....

It is suffocating.... I will still prepare myself for anything that will come....life is short ... I will be prepared ...have a clear concious to face this....peace to everyone. Thank you for being in my life, be it short encounter or long time. Thank you🙏

Almost midnight...sitting here and looking at the corridor of the the hospital...I feel pain in the heart....

So many things are beyond me...saying goodbye is never easy.

Eternal goodbye is something we all need to say once in our life the day we leave this world. 

This year so many such goodbyes....it reminds me two years ago, I almost had to say my eternal goodbye as well. I was blessed God gave me a second chance thus I am still around today.

When two people connect and have feelings, and need to let go for some reasons ...it's also nv easy.  It is so painful 😖 

The pain is so sharp across the heart  and it just hit across when she finally understood what I was trying to do and decided to stop....all this is done to protect her.  

Thank you for the short encounter of bliss. I didn't know I am still able to feel such feelings....such intense feelings. It's kinda of scary to know how one can fall so insanely...in such a short span of time...

God is real God is present in our lives... everything happens for  a reason...I'm sure God has this planned for me and is also protecting me and us....

I know God will help me walk thru these problems one by one and also help me to prepare for the eternal goodbye.

I am sorry to say Thank you and Goodbye so suddenly....Take care my friend!! 

There are more to come...just few days to go, yet things just continue to pour...another aunty very dear to me is leaving this world....sudden heart attack right in front of me..

Lucky reacted and got medical help in time....many things happened...non stop...my hp being hacked....police case. 

Everything just come at the same time..my headache came back...resting in between keeping vigil at hospital... 

There are many things I needed clarification from my aunty I hope she wakes up from her sudden coma after getting better from her heart attack...

On personal level...have to say sorry P, the selfish me wanted  to hang on to know more...but the rationale me need to say sorry and good bye! 

Life is too complicated and has been a roller coaster year! More downs then up...God please forgive and release me.

Can I have a more peaceful closure for 2025......I underestimated life!

25 December 2025 15:43 pm Thursday Sunny day

Merry Christmas everyone (reading this)!

Time flies!!! For a year, I did not post anything till now.

2025 is a very busy year for me. Busy, but fulfilling. 

I spent much time with my mum, watching Taiwanese drama when I came back home from work. Wheel my mum for evening walks, eat buns and dessert. Not forgetting our weekly visit to church, temple and consultation for traditional Chinese medicine. 

Didn't meet anyone for romance and intimacy, but chatted with a few guys online. Some left after a few chats, while some stayed. One guy who stayed is Jack. Thank you Jack for walking with me in 2025. Let's journey 2026 (and beyond) together, keeping each other company and checking in on each other's well-being. 

6 more days and we will welcome 2026. For 2026, I pray for a smooth-going, fulfilling year. I pray for wellness and good health for everyone in my family. I hope to make short trip with my mum, and most important of all, I pray for my mum's peace, joy and good health. 

Thank you 2025.

Best wishes to all of you for 2026.

晨有清遠,暮有餘閒; 心有清歡,歲月安暖。

釋義:

給時間時間,讓過去過去,讓開始開始,願我們不慌不忙步履從容,卻有歲月打賞。不奢望所有日子都熠熠生輝,但期許每個平凡日常,都盈滿安康與福澤。

Logging in to familiar grounds...bring back memories. Long closed chapters hmmm..

Is this going to be a good closing for 2025 after a emotionally draining start and losing mum and a few people that shape my life...

Gratitude to everything that has happened.

Gratitude to everyone that came into my life, left my life. Thank you!

Looking forward to 2026!

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