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queen14 - 22個小時前
Will anyone continue waiting for a partner that betrayed you? Will you still trust this person again?
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I wish someone should return something to me. I hope he should not be ignorant . I find him not honest but I tried my best to save him and retrieve something. Sadly, he left me. I understand something wrong with him since COVID-19.
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quite pitty of james
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A short story - The Bus-Stop (Part 3)
13 May 2021, 1:53 p.m. Thursday, Sunny
Three days had passed. Eric tried to be himself, but that passionate night he shared with Martinus was too strong to forget. He kept thinking about that hot night he had with Martinus. He cannot denied the fact that Martinus has satisfied his sexual desires and fulfilled his sexual needs. He just could not shake Martinus off his thoughts. Eric tried to be a good lover to James, but somehow, there is something missing between them. He does not want to hurt James in any way.
Though he tried his best to love James, Eric could not abstain himself to be with Martinus. Each time they met, they had passionate sex. Each sex they had made him feeling satisfied and horny for more. This is a feeling Eric could not experience when he made love to James. The flings continued for some time.
On a Saturday afternoon, Martinus met Eric for lunch. They went to a restaurant at Orchard Road.
In the midst of their lunch, Eric excused himself. So coincidentally, a text message was sent to Eric's phone. Martinus saw the notification "My Love". Without th slightest hesitation, he took Eric's mobile phone and replied to James' message, asking James to meet Eric at the restaurant. James happily and exitedly agreed.
About 45 minutes later, James arrived at the restaurant. He walked in and saw Eric. Excitedly, he walked to the table. At that moment, Eric was shocked to see James in the restaurant, smiling at him and walking towards him. He was lost and does not know what to do.
"Hi, dear." James greeted Eric. Eric was quiet and looked out of the glass panel. He does not know how to react, neither does he know what to do or say. Martinus invited James to sit down. Then, he introduced himself as Eric's partner.
James was taken aback, but he remain calmed. Then, Martinus told James that Eric has been meeting him and they slept at Martinus' home many times. Hearing that, James' heart beat faster. He was hurt by what Eric has done. James fought back tears, as he struggled to remain calm. Then, Martinus asked James to say his thoughts. With a deep breath, James said that he expected this to happen, just like any couples would encounter. He told Eric that he does not blame him and he can fully understand Eric's stance. After saying this, James stood up and walked towards the door. That feeling of betrayal; disappointment; hurt and helplessness all flooded James' at once. But he reminded himself to remain calm and go home.
That afternoon, James reached home and sobbed by himself in his bed, while waiting for Eric to send him a text. James waited, but by late night, Eric has not sent him a message. James waited on the next day; the following day; day after day, but there was no message from Eric. By the 4th week, James has the answer.
Back to the basis:
The alarm clock sets off as usual. A new day has begun. The same daily routine. But this James no longer goes to the bus-stop. It takes a longer time, but he decided to walk to work.
Life carries on as usual for James; the same routine recurring day after day...
PS: To those caregivers like myself; know that it is not anybody's fault given the situation we are in. It is our choice to choose what we prioritise in life. Self-care is important. Care for yourself and live life meaningfully as each new day arrives. Love yourself more if nobody loves you.
A short story - The Bus-Stop (Part 2)
13 May 2021, 12:51 p.m., Thursday, Sunny
The Flower Bloomed:
Eric and James became friends, as they met eachother at the same bus-stop. Their friendship has been more than 3 months, since the day Eric started that crucial first word, "Good morning". Who would have known that a simple two-word greeting could broke a barrier between two strangers.
One day, Eric asked James a very difficult question, "are you a gay man?". James was surprised and dumb-founded for at the least the next ten seconds or more. Then he decided and answred "yes, i always am". They both smiled at eachother. Then, Eric suggested exchanging mobile phone numbers, so that the conversation is more private. They exchanged mobile numbers. That morning, James and Eric were kept busy sending eachother messages about their sexual orientation. Both guys have something in common. Both are momosexuals.
The sending of messages has indirectly "match-maked" James and Eric. As they exchanged texts, the bond between them strengthened. A couple of weeks later, Eric popped out a very surprising question: "Can you be my love?" That is a sentence which James has been waiting all his life. Who could turn down a handsome guy's proposal for a love relationship? James was dying to hear this sentence, and now, it came true. James agreed and that started the love story between Eric and James.
Eric lives in a rented condominium alone. The couple could spend time and intimacy at Eric's place. However, given James' personal committment, coming together was not convenient to him at all. With his busy schedules, James could only meet Eric three times a week, and he had to leave Eric's place by 7 p.m. each visit. James found it dificult to juggle between his mother and his love. But what can he do? He could only hope that Eric would understand his situation.
Though the dating for each session was about 3 to 4 hours, both cherished the time they had together. Just like any couple, they cooked together; watched television programs together; they made love and showered together. Sometimes, they napped together in eachother's embrace, naked. James was blissful. He hoped that this relationship will last.
Eric and James has been together as a couple for almost half a year. James was blissful like any newly married couple will feel. Though he hoped for more time to be with his love, he also hopes for his mother's wellness. So, he needs to juggle between work, mother and Eric. It can be tiring and taxing on James, but he is feeling blissful.
One summer evening, feeling bored and alone at home, Eric decided to go for a walk. He went to a pub, went in and ordered a beer. He was enjoying his beer, when he noticed a slim, tall guy looking at him from an adjacent table. He was alone. Eric tried to avoid eye contact with him. But each time he looked up, he noticed that guy was looking at him.
After some times, that guy came over and introduced himself as Martinus. He has dark-brown skin tone and his smile is beautiful. With confidence and courage, he asked Eric if he could join him. Eric could not find a reason to reject him. So, Martinus joined Eric. Both engaged in small talk. Not long after that, both guys hit it off and they chatted like old pals.
The drinking session ended after about a couple of hours. Then Eric paid for the drinks and left the pub. Before he left, the two guys exchanged contact numbers, so that they can be "drinking pals".
Storm is brewing:
A few days after they met in the pub, martinus invited Eric to the same pub for a drink. Eric was with James during that time the message came. He hesitated a little, then he thought to himself, "Why not? SInce James Love is leaving at around 7 p.m., i would have a couple of hours before meeting for a drink". So, Eric accepted the invitation.
Eric and Martinus went into the pub and ordered two glasses of beer. It was a Saturday night, many people were at the pub. The atmosphere was like partying. The live band was playing and the Latino music has successfully captured its listeners' heart. Everyone was moving their body to the beat of the music. Martinus invited Eric for a dance at the dance floor. They dance to the rhythm of the music, together with some twenty others. It was obvious that Eric was enjoying himself, as he was smiling widely.
The music gradually move to slow numbers. Martinus grabbed Eric's hands and place them around his waist, while he wrapped his arms around Eric's neck. Both danced to the slow-moving music, as if they were lovers.
It was about 1 a.m. in the wee hour, when both guys left the pub. Eric hired a cab and offered Martinus a lift. They reached Martinus' rented unit in a flat. Martinus requested that Eric walked him to his unit, as it was quiet. As gentlemanly as he is, Eric walked Martinus to his unit. Then, Eric went into Martinus' unit, as the latter suddenly wrapped his arms around Eric's neck and started planting kisses on Eric. Caught off-guard, Eric tried to break that close body contact, but Martinus is not giving up. Eventually, both started kissing and they started to strip naked..
Martinus is a real slut when he is in bed. He made Eric felt so horny and they made love almost the entire night, until the sun rose. The passion of the night was so strong and pleasures both had given to eachother, have caused Eric to forget about James' existence. He had forgotten the love that he and James had. He had literally forgotten himself. The heat of the passion had overpowered him to think.
That guilty feeling:
Eric headed for a shower. The water might have sobbered him a little. All of sudden, he remembered that he is attached to James. Hurriedly, he dressed up and left Martinus' place.
As he took the mass rapid transit, he checked his message notifications. James had sent him 8 messages. He felt guilty about his fling with Martinus. He does not know whether to tell James the truth or not.
After pondering for quite some times, he decided to send James a message, to greet him and to wish you a good day; the usual texts that the couple would send to eachother everyday. He decided to keep the fling a secret. He does not want to hurt James.
A short story - The Bus-Stop (Part 1)
13 May 2021 Thursday 11:15 a.m., Sunny
The alarm clock sets off. James opened his eyes. It is yet another day; another working day. The usual routine: wash-up, stretching exercises, dress-up and take peek at his mummy dearest, before he closed the door and off to the bust-stop.
This routine has been James' everyday event for the past 10 years;.Nothing unusual about it, but the same boring, monotonous routine recurring everyday. As a caretaker for his mother, James' life is about home-work-home. There is hardly any event in his life, except his regular once-a-week jogging regime. Life is boring for a single 50-ish guy. He longed for a partner, but in his circumstances, it is extremely difficult to have a guy in his life.
Well, it does not really bother him anyway, since he has been single all this while. He has given up on dating, knowing how many "vultures" were there, all ready to use him for their materialistic gains. So, he dedicates his life to work and looking after his mother. He places his mother's wellness in priority.
Some may say that James is wasting his life; for there is no love except his love for his mother. Some even wondered if he became psychologically disturbed, since his sexual desires are not fulfilled. However, these speculations are inaccurate. James has a naughty side of him. He check-out guys at the bus-stop. Once, he saw this Indian middle-aged man. Nothing interesting about this man, but he has hairy legs, full-grown moustache and beard and some chest hairs "creeping" out of his yellow polo shirt. James got turned-on! He visualized that Indian man naked. He visualized that guy held him tight, kissing James and touching him all over his naked body. Goodness! That caused James an erection and not long after, he could feel pre-cum rolling along the shaft of his erected penis towards the opening of his manhood. That is how James copes with his sexual desires, mostly ended up in the toilet masturbating himself to pleasure. He compensated his love life with lots of visuals and imaginations. That way, he keeps himself sane.
The guy at the bus-stop:
At the bus-stop, James also noticed a Caucasian guy. He has curly hair and rather muscular. James stole glances at him and pretended not to be too enthusiastic about that guy. James saw him many times at the bus-stop, but he never takes the initiative to start a chat-up. All he did was, visualizing.
On a few occasions, this Caucasian guys sat down on the same bench as James. This sent a excitement vibes up James' spine. Naughty as he is, James could feel the warm emitting by that guy's body. He smelled his eu-de-toilette (perfume); smelled so manly... It smelled like Tuscany (name of a perfume). So, that Caucasian guy became the reason for James to look forward to wait for the first bus at the bus-stop.
His name is Eric:
It must have been more than 6 months, since James noticed that Caucasian guy at the bus-stop. Both guys never talked and they never saw eachother directly in the eyes. Both knew eachother's existence, but they did not show any interest in eachother, at least not openly.
One morning, that Caucasian guy appeared as usual. He walked towards James, who pretend to be looking out for his bus, while his heart pounding. That Caucasian man sat down in the same bench as James. After a while, he turned and greeted James "good morning". James was caught off-guard. Feeling the heat rushing up his neck, James greeted him back. Both smiled at eachother and that started a short, but long awaited conversation. The awkwardness was interrupted, when James' bus arrived. They wished eachother "good day", smiled and parted. That was one of the wonderful mornings James had. To him, this is a bonus of the day. He never imagined that they could be conversing, giving James' extremely shy nature. But it happened.
That Caucasian guy's name is Eric. He is in the Information Technology industry. James is in the education indusctry, teaching in a local junior school. Now that both has broken the barrier between them, they will be able to at least greet eachother with names and looking into eachotehr's eyes. This is a phase which James never imagined could come true. The conversations between both guys carried on for the next few months.
nobusik - 一個星期前
A GV from Japan:
I like the "round 2" starting around 26 minutes from the beginning.
I like both the slim actors who look really enjoying the sex.
The mysterious girl - part 2
stephie - 一個星期前
It’s been some times now. I never seen her again since that close up encounter in the lift. Maybe she moved. Maybe the timing is always wrong. Maybe she just stay at home seldom go out.
Sometimes life is full of the “maybe” when we don’t take the first step to try out something new, and sooner or later we end up looking back and give ourselves the maybe.
Maybe if that’s day I said hi and she just ignored me? Maybe she returned a Hi back to me? Maybe I would get the hint that she wasn’t interested and there won’t be any maybe today?
Where I am today is the outcome of the maybe. “As long as it lasted, it was fun.” Without her consent I had a good time building up the hope for awhile. Without her knowing, she was the “15 minutes fame” in my world.
Adagio - Slowly
ct_vision - 2個星期前
Been helping a friend heal from her breakup and slowly coming into a realization that I may have been living in a mirage. I didn’t want it to be, but the reality is starting to sink in for me. What I currently have is an imagination of what I wanted to have. The circumstances are not favourable and covid has merely clarified how cruel distance and time apart can be.
I feel my mirage is slowly disintegrating and reality seeping back in. I’ve always felt this song deeply even before I learned the meaning of the lyrics. Perhaps a dramatic overture my unconscious mind is playing to tell me what it has known for some time now. That I’m still alone and despite having a partner in name, I’m still on this journey solo. I feel each word of the lyrics so acutely. I once again find myself asking God if this is all some cosmic joke and test. To give me a partner but put an ocean between us and one she is not willing to cross. To test my tolerance for loneliness, patience and fragility for safety, comfort and solace. To give me a carrot, but on a stick; to see if I’ll break. I’ve never believed in a long distance relationship and being in one for so many years, I’m brutally reminded why my younger self thought that. I’m slowly waking from the fantasy and realizing that as time go by, I am truly still alone. I close my eyes and I find a way (I always do), no need for me to pray, I've walked so far, I've fought so hard, nothing more to explain. My story continues.
Il Divo (Italian version) https://youtu.be/w77SFM7Fksc
Lara Fabian(English version) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAWQxIq-9-Q
I don't know where to find you
All of these nights without you
I close my eyes and I find a way
If you know where to find me
Don't let this light fade away
bambi123 - 2個星期前
I am bambi all the way frpm phiippines. I hope i can find friends, lovers or someone that i could love and trust... So i could spend my life together with the person i love.
I am honest, loving, caring, faithful... I hope i can find true lover ib this site..
Tango07 - 2個星期前
Why does it takes so much to forget you ? Your presence is just everywhere!
I was trapped so badly, because You understood me thru the universe n read my mind; you ve shown the type of care & chemistry of what I am looking for in a soulmate & partner, it's simply unbelievable.
即便確定妳是騙我，但我還是對你死心塌地 是我太天真還是我太傻？ 本以為有機會可等待你回心轉意，但你卻把我們結束到沒有商量的餘地，也讓現在的我可憐到底。我感動天感動地，為什麼感動不了妳？你的溫暖就忽然變得如此冷漠。這些日子裡，難道都是我一廂情願嗎？ 你說過會陪我一起走，難道都是你策略中的謊言嗎？我感覺到你的溫度是確實存在的，但你卻不願對我坦白。我説過只要你坦白，過去都不重要，我們可以從新認識，從心開始。 你擁有的溫度是我一直最期待的風景。此時此刻， 我還很希望一切一切都是真的，你是真的， 你之前的情誼是真的，真的是我多疑了。
It's such a dreadful thing trying to let go n forget one whom is so spiritually connected with. Till this moment, am still hoping that you would turn around n look at me once more!
陳小春 * 獨家記憶* 這首歌。。真的都真正描述了我心裡的話。
need help with leaking precum
mmegadisc - 2個星期前
need help with leaking precum
pls advise how to stop it
Tango07 - 2個星期前
沒有你打招呼的早晨，沒有相間的中午，沒有陪伴的夜晚，周遭都變得特別鈴靜， 心跳也特別慢， 窗外的風景也變得灰暗單色。不知從何開始你的準在已經默默的深入我生活的點點滴滴。雖然很短暫但確實是我很真看到的美麗風景。 是錯是對，是真是假， 都不重要了。就算能再回頭也許結果還是一樣但相信如果可以在選擇，我一定不會讓你這麽受傷。也許你説得對，我沒有考慮到您的感受。 回頭看。。。都之能怪自己不夠果斷。
祝福你。。。健康， 平安， 幸福， 快樂。 希望你内心的孔穴可有更適合的人來填補。好好保重。
Rational vs Emotional
Tango07 - 4個星期前
Why rational always stands opposite to emotions? Can there ever walk hand in hand or towards the same direction????
Perhaps never...bcoz the truth is not always beautiful !
Tango07 - 4個星期前
没那么简单 就能找到 聊得来的伴
没那么简单 就能去爱 别的全不看
Tango07 - 一個月前
Commercial Transparency in Literature Seminar by Writers Association of India
asiannewsagency - 一個月前
New Delhi: Another seminar was planned by the WAI- writers Association of India with some of the most prominent writers talking and expressing their views on the interesting and serious topic like Commercial Transparency in Literature World on web.
“Writers association of India has been created to help and support new & established writers. We have been producing short films on short stories by differ rent writers to promote them in films and media World. Association has been conducting large number of workshops, seminars, interactions, talks, symposiums, anniversaries of renowned writers and festival. Popular and powerful awards have already been constituted under the name of Dr Sarojini Naidu, and late prime Minister of India Shri Atal Bihari Bajpayee. The association has conducted ample Kavi Sammelans / Kavya Goshthi’s to support literature of India,” initiated Dr. Sandeep Marwah President of Writers Association of India and Chancellor AAFT University of Media And Arts.
Renowned writer and Lawyer Ashok Arora said Writing is a great hobby, but it can be a tough profession to earn money from. Besides, you must be exceptionally good at writing to make a living from it. “Writers get better by writing a lot. So instead of going for “full-time author” straight off the bat, pick a job or work as a writer in other shapes and forms. Let’s call this commercial writing,” Dr. Rama Singh poetess and veteran teacher.
“Some of the magazines also pay for the write-ups which include essays (Trending news and various topics), book reviews and other important topics which need coverage. As they say, a pen is mightier than the sword. By writing op-ed, you can actually write about things you truly care for – try to be the change you want to see in the world,” said Ashok Tyagi well known Film writer & director and Secretary General for ICMEI.
“Writing for magazines, blogs eyc. is one of the ways to write articles and earn money in India. This also helps you build credibility as a writer because when you finally pitch your work to a publisher, you will have lots of writing visible online with your name on it,” added Dr. Divik Ramesh senior poet and writer.
“A job in publishing can be a great learning experience. The tips and tricks of the trade that you will learn while doing so, can also be helpful when your book is ready. You can then finally turn your dream of being a published author into reality and utilize all this information by practically applying it all,” expressed Dr. Pratap Sehgal
The program was conducted by Dr. Sushil Bharti Director Broadcasting- Radio Noida of Marwah Studios. The event was supported by ICMEI- International Chamber of Media And Entertainment Industry, AAFT University of Media And Arts and WPDRF- World Peace Development And Research Foundation.