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All Of Me
setfiretotherain88 - 5 hours ago
What would I do without your smart mouth?
How wonderful you are to me
setfiretotherain88 - 5 hours ago
I think about you all the time
ct_vision - 8 hours ago
I've decided I NEED to keep a sabbath of sorts.
I woke up, had my coffee and breakfast. Did my usual housework (Saturdays are "House Keeping Day"). Read the news, chatted with mom and friends over phone and Whatsapp. Now sitting down to pay my bills and clear my personal admin stuff. As all the things I want to do during the week, but couldn't get to become cleared one by one, I'm starting to regain balance and returning to my inner equilibrium.
Colleagues at my old firm used to call me, "The Machine". I think this machine is getting old. Needs maintenance once in a while. Need to do at least once a week shutdown to allow my system to "install" much required "patches" (IT friends will appreciate this analogy).
I shall now declare Saturdays as my Sabbath. A day where I do what I want, for myself.
The first day of Spring Break
boruwang - 9 hours ago
The spring break is coming so fast, and we arrived at Los Angeles tonight. With the familiar people, and delicious food, I have been missing it for a really long time. By the way, how have you been?
We will go to the Santa Catalina Island for three days to feel the real "relax". Oh, do not misunderstand. I mean we have been having exams last four weeks. We really need to sleep and woke up naturally.
I am staying at the hotel right now, and I sleep with my two best friends, who are all girls. I feel a little embarrased, because it is not convenient for us to change clothes, or sleep with less clothes, so I have to put on more during my sleep.
Five hours drive from San Francisco to Los Angeles, it is too tired. (although I am not the driver = =) I decide to sleep early tonight.
OK. Wish you have a good day. Miss you.
sophielum - 20 hours ago
Recently, had start to go gym at least once a week.
Knowing that once a week does not help me in losing weight and burn off my fats away. But I did feel better after going to gym to exercise to make myself sweat as much as possible. Not able to losing so much of weight in a faster speed but it does make me keep fit.
After 5yrs being a working adults, it made me gained 10kgs! How I can gain weight over 5 yrs for 10kgs. There are a few reasons:
1. Due to work stress
2. Not much of moving after started driving to work
3. OT and have late dinner
4. Improper sleep and meal intake
5. No exercise
Now i am awake and reduce my meal intake to eat lesser and exercise more and reduce not much appetite my weight had went down recently. It reduce not due to reduce of water retention but reduce of fats!
hornyboy44 - 1 day ago
A daddy-son relationship can be a mutually rewarding experience. Any doubt? No prob, you shall understand why in a short while.
Evil smile. No doubt his son is becoming one, very soon.
ct_vision - 1 day ago
Craziest week since the year began. An average of 4 hrs of sleep for the last 5 days, and I'm looking forward to a weekend back at the office. I'm physically and mentally exhausted. A little emotionally crippled as well.
Been a very very very very very very rough week. I've done everything I can, but it still doesn't seem enough. No matter what I do, or how I handhold, people still failed me. I feel so helpless this whole week, what else could I have done to have mitigated it all? I've spoon fed, emailed, called, and even asked for a confirmation back. My colleagues told me to take it easy and not be too hard on myself. I can't. So much time and effort have gone into gaining that little bit of progress. All gone down the drain because of careless, mindless, inconsiderate people. Useless. Absolutely useless. I feel like I'm useless and I feel like I've failed. I feel like I've let down the people who trusted me to watch over it all.
My boss's disappointed tone over the phone was crushing to me. I had to hold myself together enough to soldier on professionally. But the frustration, disappointment, and self disgust is all weighing down now. I'm breaking down and wishing there was someone to just hold me and tell me that everything will be ok. I know I'm feeling weak at the moment. I know everything WILL be ok, because I'll fix it. But I can't help but tear, wishing there was a comforting soul and people around me I can actually trust.
But what am I saying? That's just all in my dreams. And I don't even get to sleep long enough to dream anymore.
Texted her yesterday and this afternoon. Really needing the emotional support. Radio silent. How I wished and prayed she'd be able to just be here. She doesn't have to say or do anything. Just her presence will bring so much peace to my restless state. Got the oddest request this past week. A friend looking for a fuck buddy, and she thought it appropriate to ask me. This friend has a girlfriend. Met this friend for a drink. But how I wished it was S.
Why is it people who don't get it at home ALL come looking to me? Do I look like a whore or cheap? Or that I'm easy? I really don't care anymore. I don't know why people use me and leave me. I don't know why people all think they can throw their crap and issues on me and think I'll be able to take it. Useless. I feel utterly uselss at the moment.
A letter to XX
boruwang - 1 day ago
I don't know whether you could see this letter or not, but I decide to write something here. I don't really want to bother you by messages. Maybe you could feel less stressed this way. I regret sending so many messages to you, and I hope you would not think I am a boring person.
It is really nice to meet you from this website. I am lucky! I didn't know how It feels if I could love someone, or be loved by someone. There are too many people we could meet in our lives. On this website today, I am your 1/721, and probably I could be your 1/7210 out of this website. Whatever, meeting you is a good thing.
We just talked once, and I found you are a very nice man. (Maybe you just think I am a flatterer or a lair) I said I mean it. People should not be evaluated only by their looking, but their thoughts and personalities. By the way, thanks for your accomplishment about me. Actually, I dobouted it either.
Let me talk a little bit about myself. I am Boru Wang ("王 博儒"in Chinese), an international student in UOP. My major is Finance, because I like math and numbers. I have been out to my friends for two years. Sometimes I am proud of being a gay, because I am interested in men. Sometimes I hate being a gay, because I always like straight men.
The process of knowing about you has a lot of fun. I secretly checked your blogs, and your Facebook. I can believe many people thought you are charming because of your humor. And your life, is positive, optimistic, and full of fun and love.
I don't know whether you heard an old Chinese song called "I only care about you" ("我只在乎你" in Chinese). My favorite quote from this song, "With time goes by, I only care about you. When I will get my own bosom friend? I can lose my life for him/her." I really want to sing this song for you.
Thanks for reading this letter.
joeron - 1 day ago
Don't judge #Libra until you know them, don't underestimate them until you challenge them and don't talk about them until you talk to them.
3:47am. Eyes wide.
Am temperamental? Haha no. I'm just insane!
Beiyuer - 1 day ago
怀念是生命中最无能为力的事 且卑微 看着满心的疮痍 你以为你老了 其实是你空了
maledictio - 1 day ago
I'm so old I used to do the Charleston to this
Play to Butter
scream - 1 day ago
A kinda straight friend wanted to check out the lesbian scene in SG, so we've decided to go for TwoQueen's!
Lucky I checked Play's website, else would have been astounded to see it closed. Kinda excited to see how it would be like at Butter Factory, which is my party place of choice anyways.
Looking forward to our girls' night out!
Anyways, I find this Lesbian Starter Kit super hilarious. Doesn't hurt there's an uber hot picture of Shane from L Word :9
DARLING I MISS YOU
alvachen - 1 day ago
DARLING I ‘M SO LONELY
好想对你说 ARE YOU OK？
DARLING NO MORE HEARTACH
那一年 大年初7 起飞前 爱情美丽的微光
那一年 我跨年时 看着幸福的滋味 甜甜的
那一年 一首情歌 你唱着借来 感动着我
那一年 往北的火车 你走了
那一年 往南的火车 我走了
mikey82 - 2 days ago
laileng36 - 2 days ago
Will you wait for the one you love or be with the one who loves you now?
asiankiwi - 2 days ago
A few days ago, a friend posted something asimilar to my title on her status. I find that question remarkably intriguing and perhaps one of the aged old questions that we constantly asked ourselves and discussed amongst friends. Hers was a question of choice; mine was a question of choice of mindset.
Today I read another status that stated “Everytime I thought I was rejected for something good I was actually redirected to something better.” This is really another rendition of “Everything happened for a reason, a better reason.” with further embellishments. As I sat in the night, I pondered on these statuses (call Facebook what you like but some of the statuses people posted can be arcane). I must say though, I sincerely don’t know whether redirection or better reasoning works for me........ Ok it really doesn’t. It’s pretty much a load of crap. As I don’t dwell on “maybes” I don’t know if things would get better for “better” is but a matter of perception. I am better today than yesterday but didn’t mean I am fully recovered nor will ever be the same again with a scar straining my heart.
That said, I choose love, irrevocably, with absolute certainty I will always wait for the one I love (if she is currently crippled with apathy). It could be the company I keep, but I am not alone in this case. To love someone is such a rare gift and I learnt that I must treasure its every essence. I am getting older, and when I said that, it is not limited to age. Older in mind, older in knowledge and older in matters of heart which all interlaced to a certain level of maturity. While we might be brazen and even demanding towards people we love, maturity dictates some level of responsibility towards people who love us for they are, by and large, blameless.
I asked a few friends of the aforementioned question and one of them said that she will never be with the one who loved her more because she felt that she could easily lose interest and hurt the person and would probably cheat (mentally or physically). Another suggested that being with someone who love her (and she didn’t feel the same) would only hurt the person and she would be eaten by guilt and unhappiness. Yet another indicated that her biggest fear was to lose the one she loves if she decided to go with someone else (I concur in a way).
So - lost of interest, guilt, cheating, unhappiness, hurt, fear. – Not exactly the adjectives one like on a new relationship. Conscience and Logic. They can be such unyielding tools if we applied it on everything pertaining to the heart.
Even if our heart is occupied with another person, we must never forget that we could still be attracted to the person who loves us (so yes, attraction is still kinda important, without attraction however, seriously, let her go). While we weren’t able to love as deeply as the one who loves us, we must never forget the tiny nuances of joy that she provided during our forlorn period. While we thought about how we are going to hurt the person with whom love us we tend to forget that as human, we can develop feelings too. How cold are we really to not develop even some delicate affection for someone who gave us unadulterated love. What is wrong with giving someone a chance? I can assure you that you would make her the happiest person in the world. There must be something so bewildering about you that could make a person so… captivated. Qualities that might be discounted by the one you love. By giving said person a chance, perhaps, just perhaps, there is a development for further. Perhaps, just perhaps… you might fall in love too.
Even with the above argument, I will still wait for the one I love but had that person shown absolutely no romantic interest, passion or not receptive to any communication efforts, it is no longer devotion, it is mere stupidity.
Do you like?
hornyboy44 - 2 days ago
Do you like the moment when you feel so great as you're getting rough fuck, you shoot out cum like a fountain while you do not intend to, and let the man inside you feel your spasmodic contraction and orgasmical bliss?
Oh, oh yeah fuck me! Yeah I want more! Yeah fuck! Oh oh! Kiss me now! Oh no!!!!!!!!!! Oh my GOD!!!
Oh so good your ass when you cum. Gosh you must be feeling so good.
NOW! Let's change position. Lying on your tummy.
Yeah, let me fuck you till I CUM INSIDE YOU.
Please. Don't cum inside.
CUM INSIDE ME!
Oh oh!!!!!!! Oh I'm cumming!!!!!!!!!
We lying in bed, sweaty. Kissing after hot sex.
AshleyJo - 2 days ago
Already, I failed miserably on the first. I guess it’s a case of strong mind, willing mind but weak body. Although I can’t be there physically to partake in the rite, the saving grace for me is the importance of the end result over the significance of the reminder in beginning. I’m in fact “toying” with the idea of coming up with a time-table but knowing myself, adhering to it will be tough. I am always more driven with motivation than disciplined with rules in place when it comes to partaking in something. I don’t want to do it out of obligation either which means I need to psyche myself with pure faith. Not with reminders, not with avoidance to nagging, not with duty to please but simply with honesty, willingness and complete embrace.
The season has kicked off in a rather timely manner for me. I’ve been going through an unmotivated phase lately so it’s right abt time that I give myself a kick in the ass to start asking the Hard Questions and respond with Honest Answers when I do my reflections and penance.
Remember that thou art dust, and to dust thou shalt return - Genesis 3:19
I have another 39 days to make a conscious effort in doing what I want to do as opposed to what i need to do and I’m already making a mental list of the various abstinences and contemplations peculiar to me. I just wish I don’t miss having dosai with “hot babe” Aunty Nancy and folks in Little India because we’re not going there this year……
~ lucia in purple
Kano, the Movie
EccentricOn - 2 days ago
Yes, I decided to see Kano, the film about the Taiwanese high school baseball team that ended up at the league play in Japan in the early 1930s. A replay of the events, emphasizing that the team was made up of ethnic Japanese, Chinese, and Native Indigenous Taiwanese all playing together for the betterment of the team. Nearly 3 hours to tell the story that got them into the baseball finals, and certainly based in the rather thoughtful idea that people can actually work for something beyond their narrow lives. Certainly makes its point on getting beyond racism, if nothing else.
EccentricOn - 2 days ago
Interesting day. One friend asked me to (a rather expensive) afternoon tea at a local hotel. What struck me most about the tea was its resolute un-Taiwanedness. Nothing about the hotel, the tea time, or even the music was supposed to reflect Taiwanese cuisine or atmosphere, but in an odd way, it reflected everything about Taiwan.
Afternoon Tea, as its name suggests, was an event supposed to begin about 2:30 pm, and that's exactly what happened. A sit down event for two at a low table near a window in one of the many newly opened hotels around Taipei. Yet the room was a bit too cold in shirt sleeves, the music a bit too loud, the chairs notably a bit less than truly comfortable, and obvious construction noises going on somewhere within the confines of the hotel.
And so went the tea time, itself. A variety of small bites of food, some good, some so-so, some truly bad.
The opening round was resolute. Tiny scones with sweetened creme fraiche and alcohol laiden apricot preserves, although the scones were more muffin than truly scone. A drink called tomato capuccino, but really a very good creme of tomato soup. Tasty and simple, but not what they claim to be.
The second course was the salty appetizers. Most were adequate, ranging from a spoonful of aspic and vegetables to a single small shrimp laid out on puff pastry. However, the best by far was the crab stuffed smoked salmon, a ball of true pleasure for someone like me who loves such things.
The final course was the sweet desserts. It began very well with a blueberry macaroon that was all blueberry and low in sugar. Yet, some of the desserts were far sweeter and less satisfying. A slice of cheese cake and a slice of chocolate cake which were both far more sugar than chocolate or cheese. I can (and have) made better myself.
The coffee was no better and no worse than in any number of inexpensive cafes around town, and for so expensive a meal, only one cup was ever provided.
In short, all that Taipei really is. Some excellencee that can be found by picking through the flashier and more colorful items that sometimes catch the eye but have little substance. The bones good, yet the fit and finish far from perfect.